Step 1- Day 7-Dose 1

Yea, I'm a real slacker when it comes to this blog. Even though its a form of therapy for me while I'm going through this process, its also a reminder of everything. So, I get to it whenever I feel the need to share, I do check the blogs I follow daily though, so please dont you guys slack up hehehe. I'm on the 7mls now and the bumps started right before I finished with the 4 mls. They are not really bad, just whiteheads and I just pop them and keep going. Put your pants on sent me a comment the other day and it had me really thinking. I try to find some type of positive energy from any situation thrown my way in life. When I was diagnosed with HSV I CRIED until it was painful. I questioned GOD and what I had done to deserve this. But NOBODY deserves this, just like nobody deserves to have HIV, Cancer, etc. Its just something that happens, and if I can prevent it nobody will ever get this because of me. As I continued to try and come up with some type of positive outlook from this situation, the only thing I could come up with was I would GLADLY take the S in HSV instead of the I in between ;-).... So I guess I can say thanks for the S huh? heheh.. In no way do I think HIV is funny, just like I said, I'm trying to find some positivity from this. I'm a little late taking my second dose today but I'll get to it later. I feel its okay to be a little late since I saw that update on one of the other blogs I follow. They say its okay to take the shots about 3 hours apart so I should be fine. I guess thats it for the day. I really need to do better with eating prior to taking my shots. Its not a really bad feeling but I can tell a difference when I do eat..

Step 1- Day 4- Dose 2

My stomach is feeling better now, maybe because I ate something this time before taking my shot. Still no symptoms, maybe I should stop saying that before it backfires (haha). It's like I wanna drink all 3 bottles right now and start taking the pills tomorrow, I'm so anxious to finish and see what the results will be. With every shot I take I really wanna believe that it's going to work, but I can't help being a bit skeptical. I really want to think that if I keep believing it will work then it will, but life doesnt work that way. Besides, when I went to the doctor for the test I told myself the whole 4 days thereafter that the results would be negative. We all see how well that worked out for me.. But, I'm not going to let that ruin my hopes that there is a cure, and this is it! For some reason I just dont believe that this is incurable. Honestly, I believe there is a cure for everything (AIDS, H, and other STD's) but the government is so hell bent on making money off the medications that they would continue to have us think otherwise. As bad as that may sound, I REALLY hope I'm right! Wow, my entries are getting longer and longer. Maybe I'm getting used to this blogging thing (hehehe)...

Step 1- Day 4- Dose 1

I've been having the hardest time updating this page! Let me go ahead and fill you all in on where I am. I'm on day 4 and just took dose 1. Didn't have time to eat this morning so I just took the shot and I'm now drinking water. I think this was a bad idea, I'm now feeling a little funny in the stomach.. Oh well! Still no symptoms really so I'm not sure what that means. I don't really have much to say so I guess I'll leave you all with that.

Step 1..Day 2.. Dose 2

I did not get to update yesterday so I'll start from here. This is my 2nd day and I'm on my 2nd dose. Honestly, I was scared from reading the other blogs but I havent had any symptoms of anything. I felt a little groggy yesterday after my first dose but that was about it. Let's hope things dont go bad!